We’re already 3 weeks in the new semester and everything feels like it’s happening all so fast. Hopefully I can keep up?
Everything is becoming so routine which honestly I am content with. I’ve accepted the fact that during the week it’s strictly all about school and weekends are when I would go out unless school/exams/papers are necessary.
All of us are getting to that point where it’s going to make or break you. I just gotta keep telling myself to keep being determined because if you lose it for a second you’ll immediately lose focus, well for me that is.
Each day I can see the shimmer of hope closer to my grasp that I will eventually get to where I wanna be in life :( Hopefully it comes sooner.
I noticed that I haven’t been writing anything in my blog lately. But it’s honestly so routine that I don’t need to log into account of what I’ve been doing on a weekly basis. But for the most part I’ve been waking up, class, work, eat, (read, study, or work on my paper), watch a little television, talk on the phone with either my boyfriends (Vanessa or Hoseph), go on the computes, and then sleeeep all my sorrows away. I’m kind of a big deal :)
“Real love, I’ve learned, is a very, very strong form of forgiveness. I don’t think people yearn for love because they hate staying home alone on Saturday night or because they dread going into restaurants alone. People want love because they want their taped-together glasses or the extra pounds to be forgiven. They want someone to look past the surface stuff like bad hair days, a too-loud laugh or potato chips crunching in their living room couch when anyone sits down.”—Love Lessons (via timirose)
This is purposely for me to take note on what needs to be re-evaluated for the year 2011. Actually by having a New Year’s resolution isn’t so bad, I think. Many are leading me to believe that, “there shouldn’t be a reason for you to change, and you should change merely because you want to.” Well that may be true, but some of us that aren’t as motivated need some sort of beginning or might I say, a push.
ANYHOW, what I’m trying to get at is that what I’m focusing on this year is to be at my greatest potential, better than last year. Last year was a whole lot of something, and this year I want to see me conquer. I want to be on top of my game, in every aspect.
In school, It wasn’t too shabby. But looking at my grades, it’s when you get something that you know you worked hard on and you see deserving results that only encourages you to continue and do better. I know what I want, and I know what I deserve.
Relationships, I’ve never noticed it until recently that I may be expecting things more than I should. I mean there is nothing wrong with having expectations in your significant other, that just confirms that YOU know what your significant can supply and therefore you receive it without question. On the other hand when you expect things that may be out of your significant other’s hands, then that’s a different story. Ok back to what I was trying to say, I want to mold myself into a MORE understanding and reasonable girlfriend. Me and my boyfriend have strong personalities and it’s expected from the both of us to lash back with full force to one another. That’s normal. But what I want to do is that, if we do get caught in that situation I want to know that we’re fighting for good reason. I’m not gonna sit here and write that I’ve never fought about anything stupid, or say that people fighting over dumb things are just petty. I’ve learned that in every relationship you’re in you grow and evolve into a more mature and presentable person. I’d like to also contain my emotions and control my behavior. I’m not a PSYCHO or anything, I’d just like to offer my love what he’s been doing to me. We happen to compliment each other as crazy as that may seem, since we’re both kind of the same person?
I also wanna balance my friends, family, and boyfriend time. I feel that I’ve been limited to all of this. And just recently I had winter break so that gave me much more flexibility and availability to do as a please. But now that school is in session, that may not be the case anymore. So hopefully the mere sense that I wrote it down, I’ll be able to be aware of that more consciously.
Hopefully this year will be a tremendous one. I only look forward to progression :) Have a wonderful new year everyone !