I had a dream about you recently. I remember crying in my dream. When i say crying, like screaming, shrilling crying.
I think i’ve had about 4-5 dreams about you. I kinda like them because they keep me closer to you. I used to think that i’d be scared and wouldn’t be able to sleep but in some weird way they put me more at ease. It’s like you’re actually still here with me.
I’ve come to realize why i’m not able to visit or talk about it at times cause i’m scared to share things and make people uncomfortable. I know people don’t mind, but i don’t know i tend to get uneasy. and honestly it makes me relive everything that’s happened in my head again. I really don’t like it.
I push things in the back of my head to forget. I know that might be a problem, but i can’t help it. I just don’t feel like right now is the time to let you go.