I wish you were here to mend the emotional wounds that our family happened to rupture once more. Time and time again you’d think they would learn and to just drop all this drama bullshit that always seems to reoccur. A genuine change? I think not. It’s so upsetting of what we’ve become and i frankly do not want to be a part of this any longer. You’d think the whole point of your unfortunate absence was to bring us together, though it did for a while; but then eventually we’re right back where we started.
Holidays are never going to be the same. Am i really going to have to eat my dinner, and celebrate in my room watching movies by myself ? I don’t know, but the fact that you’re gone and they have not learn a single thing, will always upset me. And they refer to themselves as adults? Well i advice you all to act like so. Because this is taking a toll on us, and it’s headed for the worst.
Soon our holidays will consist of immediate family gatherings, and not as a whole. I’m sad for my little nieces and nephews that were brought into this world and unfortunately no experience the Christmas that i had been blessed to occur in my lifetime.
Sunday Morning- Woke up rather early cause a certain someone is an early bird, even on the weekends. My goodness. But despite that, it was a good time to wake up. The Ragadio sisters left, and then me and karla went out our rampage to clean. I felt real good when we got the apartment all tidied up.
Even decided to clean my room :) I was planning on reading a book, but i guess i’ll read it before i go to bed. Instead i watched Sailormoon all night for about 5-6 hours hahaha it’s a childhood obsession that’s been recently rekindled ! Makes me feel like a kid again, where i don’t have anything to worry about. No problems what so ever.
Tomorrow, i’m pretty excited to just have those days to catch up and not really have any big projects going on. Cause honestly, i can’t do that again. Freaking paper, gahh i probably bombed that paper, cause i bullshitted all the way through.
I had a bad dream today when i was taking a nap, or a second sleep as one could say. It was this girl sandy was trying to kill one of my guy friends jaybee, and i had a journey to fulfill and try to make it in time before she got there. It was like a sailormoon episode lol, cause before i went to sleep i was watching sailormoon. But once i woke up i was literally sweating cause i was scared sandy was gonna kill him :/
CAN’T WAIT FOR WINTER BREAK. scrubs back on.my birthday. my braces coming off. christmas dinner. and being able to relax.
I love writing on tumblr :) makes me happy pappy. Today was a good day to just do nothing. The end.
It’s amazing how music greatly influences the world. I don’t think i’d function properly if music was absent within my life. If i were to not listen to music all day, it would be life threatening. I listen to music when i get ready, when i shower, when i’m sitting down and just reading, when i’m walking to school, when i’m on the bus, while i’m at work. It’s crazy how music basically consumes my life with melodies, and lyrical poetry.
I wanna get into the habit of my creative side. I remember when i used to do a lot of crafts, when i used to paint, when i played piano, and played volleyball. I want to be well-rounded, artisitic, articulate. I want to be inspired again. I want to read again. I recently just bought books at a thrift store. And honestly i have my own personal library of books that ive yet to read. I think it’s a nice habit for me to just go to garage sales, and go to thrift stores and buy endless amounts of books, because i know that WHEN i do have that down time, i’ll be able to just go to my shelf and pull out a book that i haven’t read yet. I wanna play piano again, i want to play some more. I remember i used to want to play the clarinet, and the violin (because of sailor neptune) and NOW i wanna learn how to play the guitar. I also wanna paint again, maybe when i get the money i’ll be able to buy some paints. One day i’ll be able to do and learn all these things. I’ll be able to travel to Spain, England, Italy, and Greece. One day. One day.
I went to DePaul just a couple days ago and saw these students that looked so “cool” i wonder if another student from a university goes to MY school and thinks of US in that way. Probably not, bahaha. It seemed like the perfect place for me to be at. I’m not sure what i would call myself, how i’d describe my taste in music, or taste in apparel, but all i know is that i’m different. I know that I like rap, hip-hop, classical music, folk music, reggaeton, and bachata. There’s probably more but i can’t think of anymore. The way i dress, seriously confuses me sometimes, LOL. Like i don’t know what group i’d fall into when people see me dress. I’d like to know that. I went to a thrift store the other day and i got this nice blazer, it was very ME, i guess you can say. I wish i had money so i can change my whole wardrobe. I just keep telling myself in due time, in due time.
Well that’s it for now, i’m gonna watch how i met your mother SEASON 3 :)